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Ha well there goes another year. Just a few weeks left and its gone. Makes you think about all the fun times that you had, all the friends that's come and gone, all the hardships, all the trials, and all the things that you wish that you had done. Man, when I think about this year i think about the fire and passion I once had.  I want it back. I want to pursue God like never before. I wish I had the discipline to keep the fire burning.  Yeah that would be nice. One thing I do have is a pure heart. That's one thing that no one can take from me. No matter what it is, I have the best intentions in mind. When I say something, I mean it. You can count on that. My motives are pure too. I absolutely mean everything I say. I have no hidden agendas. Everything I do is not for personal gain but for God's glory. If I can't do it with the right mindset then I won't do it at all. I thank God for ingraining this into me from birth. It's such a wonderful gift that I will never overlook.  I just thought i'd let whoever reads this know that you can trust me.  Well this definitely has been a year of blessings. New guitar stuff, new car, new everything... this stuff doesn't make me happy but it does ease the pain a little. I love my new car.  My dad just blessed me with it. It's so amazing. It's a Mach 1. So awesome. Ha I even found a piece of my childhood when I purchased a DS. Got Pokemon Platinum, been playing that. So awesome. And for Christmas I'm getting a xbox 360. So awesome. I figured my last blog entries have been very dark and sad, so I had to right about my blessings and what is going good in my life. I'm not materialistic but hey, if God is willing to give, I'm willing to receive it. I saw a guy on tv and people where calling him the secret santa, and what he would do was he would go and give out $100 bills with a card that said merry christmas to random people. Homeless people, sick people, and just about anyone.  That blessed me so much just watching the reactions of these people.  He gave some money to this homeless guy and he just started crying and gave the guy a huge hug... he couldn't stop crying. Why cant Christians be this way... that's the real Jesus.  I'm sure that guy had a family to buy for and feed but he gave thousands of dollars away to the needy.  Money isn't everything but you can't make it through life without it. Man, I wish I had money to give like that.  It was the most awesome thing I've ever seen.  It's Christmas time, it might snow Christmas morning. That's pretty awesome. Christmas brings a little happiness back.  Maybe this can jumpstart my spiritual growth since it's kinda been like a dead battery here lately