The hardest year of my life is coming to an end. I hope when 2012 rolls around things will get better. I started to think of what all happened this year. So much and too much to tell. I went from being as close to God as I've ever been, to being too jaded to care. Thats a hard place to come out of. I went from going to church, to leaving that church and not going anywhere for about 6 months. I was lonely in that time. I felt like no one cared. I went from having a really close friend, to barely knowing the guy now. I wish I knew what happened there. Hurts and pisses me off to no end when I think about it. Tough pills to swallow. The one good thing that happened tho was getting close to 3 of the best friends I know. Flesh and blood. I found a church I really care about. The Pastors are awesome. I can think of better leadership to be under. A true spirtual Father and Mother that I care deeply about. No church is perfect, and I don't expect them to be. So hopefully I can start fresh in 2012. 2011 sucked hard. I have a few goals i'd like to achieve this coming year.
1. Start leading worship(yes, i will be singing)
2. Move out with my friends
3. Finish school(at least most of it)
4. Write/Release an Electro House/Dubstep album
5. Complete my studio(I'm pretty close)
6. Go snowboarding
7. Lose 50+ lbs
8. Record lots of bands and get paid for it(at least enough to pay rent)
9. Find a girlfriend whose doesn't care that i'm poor
10. Find Bigfoot
11. Fish a lot
12. Go climbing more
13. Buy a kayak
14. Use my camera to take cool pictures more
15. Make funny videos with my friends.
16. Find a better style of clothing for me
17. Jump off Whipporwill
18. Teach a message at church or wherever
19. Enjoy life
20. Take the boat out more than one time.
Yeah lots of things to do. I think this year is my year of restoration
